It’s 95 degrees outside and I was just weeding. I hate weeding, and I also love it. I hate it because it’s weeding, but I love it because of all the thinking time it allows me. It’s like therapy at times.

I’m annoyed, because I’m sure there are 50 other ways to clear an area on the property, but I always choose to do it with my hands. I’m crawling around on my knees and pulling each weed one at a time.

Today, I was thinking. Why am I doing all of this? Why the lavender, the hard work, running the ranch as a single woman? Why do I always choose the hard road? I was wondering if it’s some weird genetic thing that I can’t help or just stupidity. I just keep coming back to the thought that I want to do something great.

Here’s the deal about greatness- If greatness was easy, everyone would be great. Who doesn’t want to be great at something? Great singers, artists, runners, athletes, great anything! But in order to be great, you have to be exceptional at going after whatever it is. Which means no short cuts. No half-assed work turns into greatness.

Simple analogy- if you want to have a beautifully cleared property you can’t leave a bunch of little weeds sticking out of the ground. This is where I’m impossible to live with. I don’t like little weeds left sticking out of the ground. I will pull each one by hand and expect others to also.

I can’t even begin to tell you what I want for this property. I’ve said some things here and there, but it’s just the tip of my iceberg. I feel like I’ve lost so much this year, but what I do have is this property and my future along with it. Honestly, I don’t have the time for anyone who would ask me to give it up. Then, on the other hand, I’m completely overwhelmed by the actual work that it is going to take to make it all happen. This is where the greatness part comes in.

If I want to own a lavender farm that brings in a million dollars a year, then I’m going to have to do a million dollars worth of work to make that happen. I’ve heard it said that anything really worth having will never be easy to get. So far this is not easy. I’ve had road block after road block. However, every time something bad happens, something else solves the problem and I’ve either met someone new out of it or learned something I needed to know. Nothing being wasted.

I wanted to come in and write this out before it left my 55 year old brain. No matter what you want in life, if it is worth anything, it wont be easy to get. Decide what it is that you really want and go after it. The more amazing it is, the harder it will be to accomplish. That’s what I’m telling myself, because what I want is huge.

Remember- If it was easy to be great, everyone would be. Now I have to go back out into the heat and do some more weeding. Keep dreaming, but also remember that “dreams are for those who sleep,” The ones that are wide awake are the ones who will really make it all come true. Just saying.

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