I woke up today in a very crabby mood. I have no idea why. I do know one reason may be that I never posted yesterday. It’s the first day in a while that I’ve missed posting. I even started writing an entry about motivation. But I lost my motivation.
I ran with Steve this morning and I was really tired. I wanted to quit. I only had to run 1 minute at a time for a total of 5 times. It seemed really hard. Then we did a small crossfit workout in the garage and I didn’t want to do it. But I did. I didn’t want to clean out the linen closet either. I avoided it by mowing the lawn. Then I edged. I didn’t want to do those things either but I did. Then I swept and as I was doing that Steve came out to start a project we talked about Sunday afternoon. Ugh, I didn’t want him to do it because it seemed really hard. He did it anyway and then I helped. After we finished breaking up all the slate in our driveway I started raking the leaves out of one of my plant beads. As I was doing this I was thinking about how much I wanted to stop but I just finished it up.
After I showered I started to work on the linen closet and actually completed it. I completed the job that I tried to avoid by doing three other jobs. I really was super unmotivated today. I was mad too because I hate feeling like that. I’m a motivator. At my house I am THE motivator, Emma even said so yesterday. So when I’m down or feeling flat, there isn’t usually anyone who pulls me out of it. But me. I wasn’t motivated to motivate myself today. However, I decided to just do one thing, then another thing. By the end of the day I did many things. Right now I’m even blogging and I just didn’t want to.
Thank God this usually only lasts a day. One long unmotivated day where I got a ton of stuff done because I didn’t give up. Don’t give up. Just do one thing and then another, until you can look back and see a pretty fruitful unmotivated day.
Let’s move on in to the inside job.