Last night Emma and I were watching TV and I said to her, “It’s so weird that I haven’t posted on my blog. All this time is passing and I haven’t been posting a thing or writing on it, and I have no idea why.” She asked me if I didn’t like it, and I told her, of course I did, but I wasn’t even bothered that I haven’t posted. Then she said, in a very matter-of-fact way, that I was probably just living in the moment and said, “You do really like to live in the moment sometimes Mom, maybe that’s what you’re doing.”
As soon as she said it, I was stopped in my tracks.(Not really, but I love the drama of that phrase.) She was right. I’m still making things and shopping and planning and doing all the fun stuff, I’m just not taking pictures of it, or posting anything about it. I feel like I’ve been standing back, watching, slowing down, and engaging more with her and with myself. I’ve been enjoying other blogs and engaging in comment conversations, and finding new people to follow that I really find interesting. This month I’m enjoying rather than doing. I’m being inspired, rather than inspiring. I’m listening, rather than talking. I like it very much. The truth is, I’m not changing the world here in the Multi-ti-purpose Room. Taking a break wont be life threatening.
I have plans to share, and I’ll be sitting down Saturday to do some writing. Then, I’m all about getting ready to play for the next week, because it’s going to be Christmas! I want to be present with my family and friends and not on my computer. I certainly didn’t expect that my Christmas season blogging was going to go in this direction, but I like the surprise! This is just the sort of thing that happens when you don’t have a plan and actually just live in the moment.