I‘m sitting here today with Emma and we are working on all of our subjects in home school. I’m fighting the urge to really allow myself to feel discouraged. I just want to cut loose and wallow in fear and negativity. Seriously, don’t you love doing that sometimes. I need to. I feel like I can hold on to being positive for only so long. Then, I wallow and then, I’m back on track. Right now, I’m approaching the wallow.
Tomorrow will be one week that we’ve had our house on the market to sell and we have had three people come to see it along with one realtor who previewed it. In my head, I’m completely sure we are never going to sell our house. We made an offer today on a ten acre piece of property in another state and in my little brain I’m sure we’ve already lost it and will never move from our house here.
Emma has told me to calm down several times and relax because it’s only been such and such days…
Look, I KNOW everything happens when it should. I KNOW it’ll happen in God’s perfect timing. I KNOW these things because I’ve been here before. In the past everything works out the way it should. However, isn’t it so hard when you’re right in the middle of it?
So, today I’m just breathing and staying calm. I’m reminding myself that this is only life and what needs to happen will happen. I did everything to get the place ready but this part I can’t control. This is the waiting part and clearly I need growth in the waiting part. So here I am, growing. What are you doing?